[Fanfic] Taisuke = ...

Title : Taisuke = ...

Pairing : Taisuke + Kitayama (feat other members)

Genre : G

Summary : Taisuke steals every girl's hearts but is never satisfied?
A/N :  If you ask me where the inspiration comes from, it was from his very solo performance in MiNT Tour....and forgive about how I address only Taisuke by his first name bcoz.....I just like the name.....

 

( You Can Change but You Can't Deny )

The curtain had closed. The seats were already empty again and the fans left the big hall with smiling faces. The seven guys left the stage with mixed feelings, happy because they have entertained the fans until the last minute of the show, but also sad because of knowing that they only had one more show left before ending their album tour.

 

“Everyone~~~~~ GOOD JOB!!!”, Nikaido shouted from afar, behind the rest, enough to make the other six smiling without looking at him.

 

“KitaMitsu….I like your solo performance, really. You are such a great singer, you know. The rock-ish style really suits you voice”, he patted the smaller one's shoulder when he reached his side.

 

“Thank you, Nika”, the other smiled and felt grateful to receive a compliment from his (own you can left this out if you want to) bandmate.

 

“Yeah…. I like it too. Mitsu’s voice is really amazing. I’m definitely looking forward to your next solo performance”, Senga smiled to his favourite older member while Yokoo, Tama and Miyata nodded agreeing to what the young guy just said.

 

“Gaya-san…. Your erotic-teddy bear performance is cool too. You’re really good at making the girls screamed their hearts out. Hehe…”, Nikaido diverted his attention to his ‘so-called beloved brother', who was leading their walk to the room. No response from Taisuke except a small nod, which could not clearly be seen. No smile on his face.

 

“I agree”, Tama put his right hand up while winking towards Nika before landing his hand onto Taisuke’s left shoulder. Same as before, the other just nodded once and continued the walk, without showing any positive response via his facial expression. No one would notice that, except the small guy who walked right behind him. Yes, he did not have to look at Taisuke’s face directly to tell what was on his mind. He had seen that smile-less face before. In fact, few times after the shows they went through. He knew something was bothering Taisuke, like he was not satisfied with his own show. But he never knew the reason behind that. And he did not even have the chance to ask. But he was sure the other will let him know, someday.

 

 

~~~~~~~~~~~~

 

 

The next day, they met up again for the post-show meeting to discuss the previous show and things that should be improved, even though they only had one show left.

 

“Everyone, our manager handed over some fan mails that he received yesterday”, Yokoo put the papers given from their manager to him just now on the table in front of Senga and Nikaido impatiently grabbed some and read them.

 

[Kitayama-san, I love your solo. And I love your voice.]

 

[Mitsu~~~~what a nice voice and great singing.]

 

[Kitayama’s voice is really one of a kind.]

 

Nikaido flipped through the papers one by one as he read them out loud, just to find out that many were amazed by Kitayama’s voice.

 

“Eyh~~~~none for me?”

 

“Here, I have one for you”, Senga showed him a piece of paper with Nikaido’s name written on it before he read it.

 

[Nikaido is really great in doing acrobatics but it would be better if you could do it with the blue hair on.]

 

The other could not hold on and cracked a huge laugh right after hearing that.

 

“At least I got praised for my acrobatic skills”, Nikaido pouted as he stared at his best friend who was still laughing.

 

“But, all the mails to Gaya-san said you are really sexy, standing on the bed. That’s good, right? Gaya-san?”, Nikaido handed the papers over to Taisuke. 

 

The tanned guy just threw a small smile without Nikaido noticing it. That face, again. Kitayama noticed that face again. He definitely needed to know. And the other must tell him about that face.

 

 

~~~~~~~~~~~

 

 

“Say, Fujigaya”, Kitayama pulled his chair towards the other’s side while Taisuke was busy writing something on a plain sheet of paper.

 

“Un?”, without looking at Kitayama, he knew that the other was already next to him. And the rest had left the room for lunch.

 

“Are you… okay?”, he tried to look at Taisuke’s face to find that expression again.

 

“I’m okay with continuing the same performances for the last show. Except, I think we should address the upper level audience more often especially…” 

 

Kitayama quickly shook his head before interrupting Taisuke’s comment, “Not about that.” 

 

Taisuke put down his pen and turned his head facing the smaller guy.

 

“Oh? I thought you wanna know what I think about our last show since…. I didn’t say much so far.”

 

Yes, he did not say anything, indeed.

 

“Errr…about that, yes. Are you really okay? It’s…awkward since you didn’t even open your mouth for one single word. I thought you’re not feeling well. Are you?”, Kitayama looked at the guy he had known for 10 years now, with a worried face.

 

Taisuke, that much he knew, was a guy who can never stop talking. Thus, seeing him being silent really worried him.

 

“I’m not sick. And thanks for the concern”, he continued his writing job.

 

“Well, physically yes, I guess. But not mentally, or emotionally, right?”, Kitayama tried to make a random guess about the other’s state of mind.

 

“Hmmphh….just what you wanna know, Mitsu?”, Taisuke knew the tiny guy had sensed his dissatisfaction from the beginning but he did not want to reveal it before Taisuke told him everything. He lied, he knew it. And he also knew that he was totally not okay.

 

“Can I …. say something?”, Kitayama knew he did not have to ask permission for that so he continued, “Whenever you received compliments, from members or fans, about you being sexy and cool during your solo, you didn’t look happy. And don’t deny it because I know you long enough to read your face.”

 

Taisuke took a deep breath and sighed heavily.

 

“I knew you’ll come to me for this, one day”, Taisuke could not deny that he cannot lie to the guy who was always next to him since the past decade.

 

“Are you not happy with your performance, Fujigaya?”

 

“No… it’s not like that.”

 

“Then?”, Kitayama just could not understand the dissatisfaction that Taisuke had for his own performance, his own creation.

 

“Let me ask you something.”

 

“Go ahead”, Kitayama leaned against the chair as he started to give the other his full attention.

 

“Which one do you think is the best part of my performance, Kitayama? Honestly”, he was not sure why he had to feel nervous awaiting for the other’s response.

 

“For me? Your singing, of course.”

 

There was silence for a few seconds before Taisuke started talking again, after he wrinkled his forehead like he did not believe what he had heard just now.

 

“For real?”

 

“Yeah…. I’ve always liked the way you sing. The way you use your voice and how you fit your voice with your moves”, Kitayama could not guess anymore what the other was thinking. He had always admired Taisuke’s singing voice since the first day he heard it. But, why did Taisuke look really shocked about his answer?

 

“Hmmmppphhhh…..”, Taisuke placed his face on the table and closed his eyes.

 

“I never thought I’d hear that from you…..But, at least there is one person who really realizes it.”

 

“Eh? What is it? What is this actually about?”, Kitayama became confused.

 

“Say, Kitayama. You really wanna know why I was acting weird these few days?”, Taisuke felt that he could always rely on Kitayama to solve his problem.

 

“No…I don’t wanna know….because I think I already know it”, Kitayama looked at the other’s sad face and smiled, “You are saying that your fans did not see your real talent anymore, right? After you started showing your sexy-erotic side.” 

 

Taisuke did not have to explain to him because Kitayama had already captured the root of the problem. Taisuke nodded his head, slowly.

 

“But that’s who Fujigaya Taisuke is. Nobody can do what you do. Nobody can bravely doing those moves, beautifully like you move. It suits you, Taisuke”, Kitayama knew that he was not the best person to comfort Taisuke but he could not bear seeing that face again.

 

“I know… I know the fans are happy… and I know somehow I managed to steal hearts by just stay on a plain bed. But I don’t want to be known as a good erotic performer only”, he cupped his face with both hands before he felt a gentle pat on his left shoulder and he looked up.

 

“Taisuke, if you don’t like what you’re doing now, then stop it.”

 

“But my fans might not accept it.”

 

“Then they are not your true fans. If they are, they’ll love you for whoever you are, whatever you do and whichever image you bring. They’ll like you as long as you are on stage, making them happy with your smile, from your heart”, Kitayama poked his finger onto Taisuke’s chest.

 

“You're sure?”, Taisuke thought the other was just trying to make him feel better.

 

“Of course. And even if all the fans left you, just remember that there is always one fan who’ll never gonna leave your side”, Kitayama smiled and winked before he started to walk out of the room.

 

“Kitayama…” 

 

The small guy stopped in front of the door.

 

“I… I need your help.”

 

“I think you know where to find me”, Kitayama stepped out of the room without looking at the other, leaving Taisuke with a new bright spirit inside.

 

 

 

~~~~~~~~~~

 

 

 

The show was reaching the last quarter before it ended. “Catch & Go” was definitely a cheeky performance, especially when Nikaido jumped over and tried to catch the ball that supposed to be caught by Senga and almost landed on top of his friend.

 

At the end of the song, Miyata’s voice was heard as he announced the next song.

 

“Fujigaya Taisuke, Love Meee!”

 

All the lights that illuminated the stage were off for a few seconds before a dim yellow light was focusing onto the center stage, where a white chair was set up. Sitting on it was a guy, holding an acoustic guitar, wearing a plain white shirt and a pair of black pants. Covering his head was a black hat with thin red flashy line, enough for the audience to only see the lower side of his face. There was no bed on the stage, no teddy bear, no big mirrors and no juniors. All the fans were showing puzzled faces, not knowing what was exactly happening and who the guy was on the stage. As the guy started to pluck the guitar, the music produced was the intro of Taisuke’s solo song. And the audience kept puzzling.

 

“Uuhh….toki wo tomete kono mama….” 

 

Yes. That were the correct lyrics. And it was the right voice. The same beautiful voice that sang the song. Still, nobody could tell why there was such a difference in the performance. When he continued singing and plucking the guitar, the dome was full of silent people.

 

“But I..I, I can do it just for love…”, as he entered the chorus part, he threw away the hat, showing that he was the singer who owned the song. He was Taisuke, who used to stand on a bed while singing the song. This time, the only prop that he had was a chair and the only music instruments being played was a brown acoustic guitar. No dancing, no erotic moves, no sexy faces. Just him, with a guitar on his lap.

 

“Love or Liee…..”, he ended the song before he walked towards the darker side of the stage and disappeared. There was no single applause from the fans for the first few seconds but moments later, the dome was filled with shouts and screams.

 

 

 

~~~~~~~~~~~

 

 

 

As they walked out of the backstage, Nikaido and Senga sprinted towards Taisuke before jumping over next to him.

 

“Gaya-san~~~~What was that? What’s with that guitar? And the acoustic version of Love Meee? When did you decide to change it? How come we never knew about this?” 

 

Questions of curiosity came out from the younger members, making Taisuke just smile. As he noticed a small figure was passing his side, he took a quick glare at the other before the other nodded and smiled.

 

“I guess it was a surprise? For the fans…and you all…”, Taisuke could not stop smiling.

 

“Surprise? It was a big shock. I guess the fans were too shock to give any response”, Yokoo’s voice was heard from his behind, “But that was brilliant, though”, Yokoo grabbed the other’s shoulder before patted a few times.

 

 

 

~~~~~~~~~

 

 

 

“We received mails from the fans that came for the last show”, Kitayama brought some envelopes that he received from the manager just now as he entered the empty room.

 

Taisuke was nervous to know the response he might get about his performance.

 

“Can I have mine?”, he reached out his hand to Kitayama while the smaller guy was busy checking the receiver’s names on the papers.

 

“I read them for you”, Kitayama smiled while looking at the impatient guy in front of him.

 

[Taipi’s performance is amazing and really surprising. I never knew you can look sexy even with just a simple shirt…]

 

[Fujigaya-san… standing still will NOT brush off your sexiness.]

 

[I was glued and frozen to my seat while witnessing the sexiest man behind the guitar… *nosebleed*]

 

“AGAIN? Aaaarrrgghhhh……”, Taisuke scratched the back of his head with both hands before slamming his face on the table.

 

“I guess you can’t deny the fact now. For fans, Taisuke equals to SEXY!”, Kitayama chuckled as he looked at the guy who already pulled a very long face.

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